But there is a restlessness about this time too. I think a lot about past choices I've made. If I had taken a different path, would life have still brought me to this place? I know this isn't a fair question to ask oneself. You can't change the past. And as a believer, I put my faith in God, who promises us in His Word that He knows already the plans He has for our lives,
"Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a hope and a future." Jer. 29:11
But I'm a dreamer. An overachiever. And people like me become restless a little too easily. It is difficult for me to be still and wait on God's perfect timing. Believe me, more often than not, this is what mine and God's conversations are about. :) I could have sworn that I'd be the CMO of the largest non-profit in Texas or the VP of PR for the most successful agency in New York by now. Ok, that's a little lofty at 25, but you get what I'm saying. I just worry that I'm not reaching my full potential or that I'm not pushing myself hard enough. Or worse, that I haven't taken chances. I hate when people tell me that they live with regrets. I never want to be that way.
So, this has been my brain the last three days. Restless, moody, anxious.
In other news, I bought a new camera bag and a new UV lens for my Nikon today. As much as I love my iPhone and Instagram, it's a bit ridiculous that I've had a DSLR for two and a half years and I've hardly used it. When you have such a great tool at your disposal (especially as a blogger!), you must use it. So, my Nikon is officially glued to my hip. I'm watching YouTube videos and figuring out the tricks to becoming a better photographer. Watch out; there may or may not be some pretty cool pictures popping up (let's hope yes!).
If God is the one ultimately in charge of my life, the least I can do is bring a good camera along for the ride. :)