23 October 2011

Sometimes, all you have to do is sit on the front porch

 {This is what peace looks like for me this morning}

Do you ever feel like the world is spinning madly around you and that you can't slow your brain down long enough to have one complete thought? This has been me over the last week or so. It is also the reason for my lack of posts. With the craziness of life that I have been encountering recently, I have found it extremely difficult to blog about anything because I haven't fully processed my thoughts. Before I can complete one, a new one is being created. This has been extremely tiring, if you can imagine.

"'Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,' says the LORD, who has compassion on you." 
Isaiah 54:10

At this very moment, I am sitting on the front porch of the Camp Zephyr office and it is a perfect 66 degrees with a light breeze. No words can describe the peace that comes with sitting on this front porch. It is a familiar place to me; a place I've sat and read my Bible, blogged, and had both serious and hysterical conversations with friends and family. Although the world spins madly on, here I find rest. I think this is what I'll love most about living out at camp. I yearn for those mornings of quiet time with my God on the deck in my backyard, Bible and coffee in hand. And from what those who have lived in our house before us have told me, the view of God's majestic, starry sky from our backyard is going to be breath-taking. I know I'll never get enough of this.

"Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning."
James 1:7

I woke up at 5:30 a.m. on my own this morning with tears in my eyes. This never happens to me and sort of freaked me out. I don't think I was having a bad dream, but in all honesty, I can't remember. Maybe it's because I have to say goodbye to not only two of my dear friends today (who are moving to East Texas), but two people who have helped mold me into the woman and leader I am today. This couple has been a huge part of my time at Zephyr and I'm really having a tough time accepting that they won't be here as Luke and I move in. It could also be because I haven't slept well the past week or because of the pressure I'm putting on myself to pack/move/figure out our car situation/etc. in just a few short weeks. I don't know why I woke up with tears, but I'm telling you if you ever wake up this way, drive or fly to Zephyr and spend a quiet morning on this porch with me. It will do your soul good.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Matthew 11:28-30 
Your prayers would be appreciated.  :)


  1. omg. yes! I have been feeling so incredibly overwhelmed with everything lately. I want to just sit down & breathe! You described exactly how I have been feeling lately.

  2. I have had this experience quite a number of times especially since the death of my twin. Life seems like one is on a roller coaster ride but my Christian faith has certainly helped me. Being able to just look in awe at a breathtaking scene also helps. Nature does wonders. I hope everything will work out fine for you. Take care.

  3. Praying for you, girl. I know God has big things for you on this journey and he will bless you for stepping out and trusting him!

  4. What an amazing and transparent post today lovely! :) We all suffer with times like these, and the only way to get through them is our complete trust that God has our backs. We need to allow Him to direct us and lead us down the path He has always planned for us to go down. Give it all up to God! :)


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